Depression has sunk in…
The rolercoaster of mood swings has finished but left me in a low. Having the cold hasn’t helped because I can’t really go out and do things, which usually helps me feel better. It’s very cold outside and I don’t want this cold to get any worse. The depression has kicked in good and proper. I don’t enjoy things, that is when I can motivate myself to do anything, I can’t think of stuff to fill my time, when I do think of something I try it and either get frustrated or hate doing it-things I would have previously enjoyed. I can’t concentrate and keep waking up too early in the morning. I feel persistently sad or empty. I need to try and nip this in the bud, so I’m going to harrang my doctor to see if I can see a psychologist, I’ve been on the waiting list for about a year and have heard nothing. To be honest I’m not very impressed with the NHS, I’ve got schizo-affective disorder, a serious mental illness and I have to wait this long for help. If I had the money I would pay to see someone privately but I’m on benefits so there’s no chance of that.